Every time I start a new painting, I am thrilled and in total panic at the same time. I think every artist knows that feeling. Even though it is not easy to endure: It is a wonderful feeling! However, this panic creates chaos in my head.
When I start with a new abstract work, I usually begin with random brush strokes of color, and then paint unpredictably and intuitively. I always try to work in the direction that the painting gives me. Sometimes I paint on the rhythm of music. Often it is an experiment with different methods wich I have seen somewhere and would like to try myself. I always feel that I take great risks. I then reassure myself every time with words such as: “It’s just paint, you can always throw the painting away, and you can also paint over it again.” Then the panic decreases and I can think again: What would happen if … “.
Sometimes it appears that the painting already knows what it wants to be. Then all I have to do is to surrender, to look and above all to rely on my brushes, which then just do the job, because they know what to do.
Painting every day is a must for me and also very useful, because you get better. You can predict what will happen when you make certain brush strokes again and again. You know how much water or medium you should have on your brush etc. You can achieve more with less effort. So you grow and get more confidence in yourself, but that is not the only thing.